kini darah itu mengalir.........

a story goes, witout a time frame [always disoriented..!]

started like 3 days before 2nd of may.. [wat date was it? wat day?]
uhm.. my emotion kinda rushing, and it felt like it's gonna blow itself out..ah..ffck..am bein way too sensitive. rage..rage..rage..no seconds witout anger.and it was causeless anger..ffck..am screwed!!

umm..wait..i think i forgot sumthing.uh.. forget it.

lantas..spertinya..sbenernya smua keberantakan itu bermula dr sminggu yg lalu,kira2 tgl brapa ya? ah..ffck..males mikir.

so...as i continued bein a hell fckin mad chick, am dyin for a fckin gud ffck too..ha! but am not in 'too mood' for doin it. cos am so damn moodless!
it's funny, wit the 3 bfs i have now, none of them were available for a ffck.or in other case, the available one is the less interesting.
wat d ffck are they useful for...???!! nothing! ha...!

hihi..tapi toh.. stelah turbulensi-turbulensi yg memakan waktu dan tenaga yg tdk bsa dibilang tdk sdikit, i got my ffck.
but..still.. am dyingggg for a gud ffck!

then i met my #2. wit lots of flashing awful ideas 'wat to do wit him'.. uhm.. another whore[ish] thoughts. yea.. i hink i'll ffck'em. hiahia. i thought that it was gonna be a 'whore day', but... fffffffck!!!!
I GOT MY PERIOD
yesh, of course it was a gud thing knowing that am not pregnant [pfffiuh!!] after lots of useless paranoidoid and stupidoid time worried of bein havin living tiny mini creature inside my belly.
and of course it was a BAD...BAD.. thing too.. bcos there's no chances that i could taste d deliciousity of my #2.
aarggh... so fckin hectic.. co my carnal lust bein' suspended to become real for like 5 days...???!!
and anyway, how does it feel to see a delicious cake in front of you but you cant eat it..???!! fcked up, rite..??????
tpi tetep lah, darl.. positive thinking. if you cant eat it whole, icip-icip msh bsa khaaaaan....??? hohohohoho...
dan ku ingin mlumatnyaaaaaaa......!!!! hihihi...
uh..tpi msh ada hari esok... lusa... minggu depan... ya ga...??? waiting... for #2's next visit..
sabaaaaaaar........ sabaaaaaaaaaaar.....

dan kini darah itu mengalir...

nikmat...

sperti kerongkongan kering dan dahaga yg tersiram air dingin...

lega...

kurasakan aliran darah itu..

mnuju sbuah kapas tambalan yg siap menampung semua.

dan kini darah itu mengalir...

and i cant have my ffck

and i feel so fcked

cos i need a ffck like ffck

and ffffffck......

it's still flowin' ... on..and..on...

tha..tha