crita tentang seorang wanita.

cantik...? ah... sepertinya tidak.

tinggi semampai...? ah... tidaak.

putih...? ah... cenderung gelap.

hohoho. makin kejaaam.
tapi ini menarik lho!

dia itu pendek [lebih pendek dari aku!]
bayangkan.. mulai sekarang.. bayangkan.
hitam [or coklat tua bgt!] dengan tekstur kulit yang bisa dibilang tidak lembab dan tidak halus dan tidak mulus.
dan betisnya... besaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar skaliiiiiiiiiiii....!!!!
hiahahahahaha.

udah kbayang kan lucunya gmana???

well... itu belum cukup.

kalo diperhatiin, tampangnya tuh ternyata lumayan parrraah...
wajah bulet dengan bibir kecil yang monyong, trus idung pesek yang mencuat ke atas, plus mata sayu yang tidak bagus.

hohohoho.

satu lagi yang extreme.
rambutnyaaaaaaaaa....!!!!!
super mengembang, 1/2 kribo + 1/4 kriting + 1/4 berombak dan menyatu sehingga membentuk suatu "shape" yg mirip dengan jamur.

ngahahahahahahahahaa........

im not bein dramatic and hyperbolic.

tapiii.... wanita itu tetangga ku, dan....
it's such a nitemare to see her everyday.

i call her si jamur.
hiahahahaha...
trus berubah menjadi mushroom's hair.

tapiii...
itu kan cma rambutnya,dan stelah diperhatiin.
secara keseluruhan dia emang mirip jamur.

so... that's when the nu nickname came.
HAIRY MUSHROOM

wkwkwkwkwk...

jamur berambut.... aaaaaaaaargh...... geliiiiiiiiii...... hihihihihihihihi

bangke!

ga da angin ga da ujan, tiba2 nyusruk aja gw di tangga
dgn posisi yg aneh pula.


how come gw yg lagi turun tangga bisa tiba2 nyusruk dgn bertumpu pada tulang kering gw?
jatoh yg aneh.... bneran deh....

yah... as the result for that fckin accident:
kaki kanan kiri sakit.
yah, yg parah sih kaki kanan gtu, ankle kudu dibebat gr2 sakit klo dipake napak, trus tulang kering and dengkul memar membiru, paha juga rada bengkak.

ya, no big deal sih, no broken bone or apa lah. tapi teteeeeeeppppp..... sakiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit, sob!

hiahahahahahaha.........


jdi bingung klo gini, aktifitas penjalangan gw agak yg jadi tersendat malah hampir stuck.
krn immobilitas gw jga lgi tersendat.

i wonder, "posisi" apa yah yg tidak menyusahkan dgn keadaan gw yg skrg ini....???
soalnya, knowing for sure that i'll stay in this fckin immobile state for a while [a week or two, maybe..?!]
jadi masalah "posisi" itu hrs dicari solusi nya.

guys, help me dunk!!!!

ide dan saran nya gw tunggu yahhh.

and, fella..... klo mo ktawain gw, yah... sok atuh silahkan.....!!!!

tertawalah diatas penderitaan kuuuuuu....!!!!!!!!

a story goes, witout a time frame [always disoriented..!]

started like 3 days before 2nd of may.. [wat date was it? wat day?]
uhm.. my emotion kinda rushing, and it felt like it's gonna blow itself out..ah..ffck..am bein way too sensitive. rage..rage..rage..no seconds witout anger.and it was causeless anger..ffck..am screwed!!

umm..wait..i think i forgot sumthing.uh.. forget it.

lantas..spertinya..sbenernya smua keberantakan itu bermula dr sminggu yg lalu,kira2 tgl brapa ya? ah..ffck..males mikir.

so...as i continued bein a hell fckin mad chick, am dyin for a fckin gud ffck too..ha! but am not in 'too mood' for doin it. cos am so damn moodless!
it's funny, wit the 3 bfs i have now, none of them were available for a ffck.or in other case, the available one is the less interesting.
wat d ffck are they useful for...???!! nothing! ha...!

hihi..tapi toh.. stelah turbulensi-turbulensi yg memakan waktu dan tenaga yg tdk bsa dibilang tdk sdikit, i got my ffck.
but..still.. am dyingggg for a gud ffck!

then i met my #2. wit lots of flashing awful ideas 'wat to do wit him'.. uhm.. another whore[ish] thoughts. yea.. i hink i'll ffck'em. hiahia. i thought that it was gonna be a 'whore day', but... fffffffck!!!!
I GOT MY PERIOD
yesh, of course it was a gud thing knowing that am not pregnant [pfffiuh!!] after lots of useless paranoidoid and stupidoid time worried of bein havin living tiny mini creature inside my belly.
and of course it was a BAD...BAD.. thing too.. bcos there's no chances that i could taste d deliciousity of my #2.
aarggh... so fckin hectic.. co my carnal lust bein' suspended to become real for like 5 days...???!!
and anyway, how does it feel to see a delicious cake in front of you but you cant eat it..???!! fcked up, rite..??????
tpi tetep lah, darl.. positive thinking. if you cant eat it whole, icip-icip msh bsa khaaaaan....??? hohohohoho...
dan ku ingin mlumatnyaaaaaaa......!!!! hihihi...
uh..tpi msh ada hari esok... lusa... minggu depan... ya ga...??? waiting... for #2's next visit..
sabaaaaaaar........ sabaaaaaaaaaaar.....

dan kini darah itu mengalir...

nikmat...

sperti kerongkongan kering dan dahaga yg tersiram air dingin...

lega...

kurasakan aliran darah itu..

mnuju sbuah kapas tambalan yg siap menampung semua.

dan kini darah itu mengalir...

and i cant have my ffck

and i feel so fcked

cos i need a ffck like ffck

and ffffffck......

it's still flowin' ... on..and..on...

tha..tha

waaaaaaaa........

after uncountable [no,im not bein dramatic!] people [men n women] i've kissed
after hundreds [not bein dramatic!!!] of kisses
never in my life, not even once, i tasted lips like his........
uuuuuuuuuh.......
soft, smooth, jelloid.... arghh..... couldnt describe it precisely.
uh,... and im so shocked!
how could this kind of lips ever existed, n i just taste it @my 23????
and how could this rare lips were his?????
why his?????
damn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for ffck's sake, i admit it now, im addicted.

im being hysteric

im being loonatic

im being hectic

im being idiotic

wadugh... tersera mo pcaya taw tidak, tpiiiiiiii... ini nyataaaaaa !!!!!!!!!!
sriusan tu bibir langka bener!!!!
aargh..... sampe2 mo mencium lgi pun ku jadi ragu. takuuuuuuuut mrusak ke-langkaan-nya
hohohohoho...bner jadi yg gila gini, mampus saya.
jadi norak
jadi kempring

hiahahahaha.......... im a hysteric loonatic.
addicted to his rare lips.

smogaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa bibirnya tetep terjaga kelestariannya.
karena klo ada seseorang yg mrusak keindahan dan knikmatannya, 100% pasti kubantai,.
kan kukirim org itu ke alam lain dan tentunya scara perlahan dan penuh kekejian dan kelaknatan,.

oh ma goat....
cant stop thinking bout that lips.
bibir yg langka, yg nikmat, yg surgawi,. [najish gila bahasanya!!!!!]
hiahahahahaha

sperti candu yg membuat hasrat slalu merindu

aarghhhhhhhhh....
ffffffffffffffck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mau...mau...mau...mau...mau...mau...mau...mau...mau...mau...

gila...

gila...

gila...

hahahahahaha.....aaargggh...... najissssssssssssssssssshit... gw jadi kempring berat gini.uh......

"irma, knp loe?"

"ah, ga knp2"

"srius? ga knp2?"

"yesh, cuma gila aja dikit"

Cultivate your hunger,
before you idealize

Motivate your anger,
to make them all realize

Climbin' the mountain,
never coming down

Break into the contents,
never falling down

My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve
Sneaking out the classroom, by the backdoor
A man railed at me twice, though, but I didn't care
Waiting is wasting for people like me

Don't try to live so wise
Don't cry 'cause you're so right
Don't dry with fakes or fears
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end


You say, "Dreams are dreams"
"I ain't gonna play the fool, anymore"
You say, "'Cause I still got my soul"

Take your time, baby, your blood needs slowing down
Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom
Reflection of fear makes shadows of nothing

You still are blind, if you see a winding road
'Cause there's always a straight way to the point you see

Don't try to live so wise
Don't cry 'cause you're so right
Don't dry with fakes or fears'
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end


'Cause you will hate yourself in the end

wat's d deal?
um... am havin sum difficulties coping wit anything dat involvin emotion. but d problem is, everythin must come wit certain emotion. whether is it from me or sumone else's. that is the least thing i need. emotion. yesh. and u know wat????????? wat i need rite now is silentness. and.............................. it's so fuckin annoying dat everyone wont let me have my peace. i just want a lil time, in peace wit the absent of disturbance, for writing. but look wat i got? someone is watchin tv wit a fckin loud noise, and askin me this askin me that, hmmpf... cant they just keep their mouths shut for a while???????? um..well...dunno why am feelin so happy and so fcked up at the same time. need to organize. need to rearrange. haha. happy n fcked up. which one is dominant?
both! so... gonna need to arrange this state before one of the feeling become dominAnt. Yesss.... got to rearrange my messy happiness. will i be able? anyway, nowadays, i realized that i becoming a person wit sumwat high self-monitoring. hihihihi.... changing into a bad and ugly person. usually i dun ever give a damn about wat people think about me, wat i do, or evrything. but, why it's started to change? is it a good thing? or is it a bad thing? or is it a neutral thing? ha. crap! people changed, always changed. become good or bad, they're always change. but i'll never judge them for dat, even tho i'll grade them, but it's none of my concern to judge them or tellin them wat to do. and anyway, a bit confused here, now. i think i'm faking myself. witout any means to do it. it's sorta happened itself. or i might be forced to be sum1 else, forced by surroundings or the situation. and i hate it. i hate it and hate it more. bein is this kind of state makes me feel so miserable. but this miserableness causing a cute happy feeling. u know like, making me feel like wanna smile and in the same time thinkin how idiotic i am, but enjoying and proud of the idioticness. uh... feel like having butterflies inside my belly, and makes me wanna puke but dun want the butterflies to be vanished. let all the butterflies wander around, even tho they make me sick. conflicting. so wat's d point here? as usual. pointless. and im happy. and im fcked up. a happy life. a fcked up life. yesssssh... this is my messy happiness. and i know precisely now, that it needed no arrangement.

Rest In Peace

KEIKO

on

14th of May 2008

We love keiko so much, but God loves him more...