Nih... Klo msh kurang jelas ..
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Hohohoho...

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Nah..nah..
Cba liat ni huawei esia..
Bentuknya mengikuti kontur muka.. Lebih nyaman klo dpake nelpon..

Bntuk mangap kyk mulut buaya, bisa didiriin jga dgn balance yg bagus..

Hehehe....

Tolong ksh feedback bgmn mnurut lo, huawei terbaru ini..
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hehe.. ive always hated weekends.. but u know what? the strange thing now is..
i learned to like weekend.. mmh... to exact is im tryin to be happy on weekend.

u see, lamount came up wit the term "hppy saturday".. every early saturday, he always texting me or saying "hppy saturday, darl".
at first i fet like wanna ppuke all over the floor..
but through time, im gettin used of that words.

hehe.. and now i just cant wait for weekend, just to hear those words.
hehehe... i know it's lame.

but dont worry, everything between us is always two ways.
i learned to like weekends, and he learned to LOVE monday... just like i do...

mmh.... the fact of me loving monday is way more strange and lame than waiting saturday to come, aite???

hehe...

happy saturday, fella

hihihihihihi
taetaetaetae
huhuhuhuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

ga bisa tidur!!!!
bingung mw ngapain
roko abis, duit ga punya, mw tidur ga bisa, mw ngemil ga ad makanan..
hiahahahaha... sumpah...sial bgt nih...

hppy monday udah lewat, skrg udah selasa, aaargh... mulailah bad luck menghampiri saya...

knp yak, bad luck + kesengsaraan idup pada doyan bgt nyamperin gw?
kbanyakan dosa kah????

I'm hypnotized
By the beauty of the morning light
It draws me in and draws me out
And in the breeze I feel the life
Supping gently from my skin
Silence fills my head and everything
The water gently passes by
As I sit here mesmerized
I don't feel the way it drags me down
Across the waves I see a light
Shining golden in my path
Beauty fills my eyes and everything
Calling me
The beach song sings to me
I hear it calling me
Suicide can't bring me down
Your love can't turn around
Suicide can't take me
Suicide can't bring me down

hold a cutter wit cold n shaky hand.heart beats faster as d cutter gettin nearer to ur skin.
draw a thin line there.
ur skin is ur canvas.
make ur masterpiece.
take a heavy breath...
can u feel it..??
as d sharpness of it touch n cut ur skin, ur heart beats slower.
breath...
draw another thin line.draw draw n draw!
until u feel enuff.
until ur breath is lightened.
relieved in despair.
see d existence of significant red.
pain.pleasure.
do not reject.
feel it them.wit ur all.wit ur dim soul.wit ur unexisted moment of happiness.
see...??
that's d beauty of pain.
accept n feel...
beautiful pleasure of temporary pain.

Fading sun above the city of dusts
i stare out of the windowas far as my eyes do not betray me
People mistaking happiness for lust
easier for me to follow
somehow my conscience won't let me
swimming in a sea of hipocrisy
dreams vaporizing in skies of lies
hope withers dust to rust
I am what my conscience is
I am what I know is good
I am what I believe in...

--nucky--

as you walk bymy heartit perishesto dustto kill theearth's crustfailed to seecause of blindnessas with nointention walks my feettoward the wonders of theworld and die amongthe flowersas the peel likea ravishing diesasecorrupted hearthurting meas blood runscold slippingthrough fingersand running crosshides just behindthe transparentdisguisepiercing eyesinject thefleshas it boilshot androtsthe skullseject the bodiesas silentlywe stareinto the openand find nohopecreatingnothingbut tearingall happinessto treacherousscarpsof heartbreakas then thetentacle oflove iswretched amongall tattered soulsas flames embroiledthe joy you spring she lies embedded in blackroses dead.

--dark princess--

being in an "idiot-attack" [kind of syndrom dat makes me so damn idiotic... i mean... damn idiot] really pain d ass. and many embarassing moments happened. yea... stupid.. no.. idiot. so, yesterday, i went up late. jadi, in a rush siap2 untk kerja. dan witout taking a bath. i thought of taking a bath @ d office. so i put my presentation suit [cos i had 2 do a ffckin presentation]. and well, yessh,,.. i look so charming, and classy and elegant and sophisticated [hha... narcist]. luckily, my friend pick me up. so... yes, lucky... sampai kantor, i went straight to meeting room. and............... my dad was already there. and stare @ me like...hmmm.... i dunno... scary stare!!! while in other hands, i walked in wit a perfect high self esteem. and..... after a smile and a "good morning" ... i stood in front of them. and they laughed..... wut????? wut's wrong??? yaaaaah....... i still wearing my huge pighead slipper.... damn........ i didnt wear my high heels, instead i wore my ugly xtremely huge pighead slipper. yups.... n no need 2 tell u more. cos i know u can imagine how that ended up. fffck......

You built my hopes so high,Baby
then you let me down so low
You built my hopes so high then ya let me down... so low
Don'tcha realize sweet baby?
man.. I don't know... which way to go
man.. I can't quit you babe

I think I'm gonna put you down for a while

Wanna tell you about the boy I love
My..he looks so fine. he's the only one that I been dreamin' of.
Maybe someday he will be all mine. I wanna tell him that I love him so
I thrill with his every touch
I need to tell him he's the only one I really love

I got a man, wanna ball all day
I got a man, he won't be true,
no.. I got a man, stay drunk all the time
I said I got a little man and he won't be true

Everybody's with the one they love I walk the town, Keep a-searchin' all around Lookin' for my street corner boy

I got a man, wanna ball all day
I got a man, he won't be true,
no.. no..
I got a man, stay drunk all the time
I said I got a little man and he won't be true

In the bars, with the women who play guitars
Singin', drinkin' and rememberin' the times
My little lover does a midnight shift. he followed around all the time
I guess there's just one thing a-left for me to do.. Gonna pack my bags and move on my way
Cause I got a worried mind
Sharin' what I thought was mine
Gonna leave him where the guitars play

I got a man, he won't be true,
no.. no..
I got a man, wanna ball all day
I got a man, stay drunk all the time
I got a little man and he won't be true

(Hey hey what can I do)

DaMn…!!!!

HeLp mE

pLeAsE……….

HeLp mE

damn.........
confused.... confused... so fffin confused.

hmmmpff..... too many guys but there's only one ME. hhahahahahahaa...
oh...boys, please dun make me choose.

tae bgt ah gw.. mulai brantakan ni dunia perjalangan. duh duh gawat... ya ya ya.. rock boy, please come in and ffck me! hahahahaha
he is the 2nd rare lips. duh duh... with rare kisses...makin duh duh duh,,,... and u know wat?? he got the style.. u know, style that makes me go "uh" and "hmmm" along with thousands of dirty thoughts.. hahahaha......
but surely this is dangerous.
cos im tryin to fall in LUV here, hello??????!!! and he came!!!! damn.... and... and... and...um.... i want him too... ahahahaahaha....and im charmed....and...im ffcked!!! hahahahaha
duh duh duh......... i like 80% alotssssss.... but i like rock boy too, alotsssss!!! gmana dunk???? blm lgi si blue-eyed, duh duh duh...ampuuuuuuuuuun........tpi mslh si blue-eyed sih emg ga trlalu penting, emg gw jga ga trlalu doyan2 bgt ma dia.gw bingung....bego bego bego.....everything is so ffcked up now, and will be more ffcked up later.. hahahaha.....susah yah klo emang j.a.l.a.n.k ampe kpn pun tetep jdi j.a.l.a.n.k walopun gw brusaha tobatttt.... tapi, damnnnn...........tak tahan godaan!! nope nope! bkn tak tahan godaan, tpi yah itu terjadi aja, tanpa diinginkan tanpa disadari tanpa diharapkan. emang udah jalan idup gw gini kali yah?
wadawwwww...... gawatttttttttttttt...... idiiihhh..... dramatis bgt yah gw... dramatis tae..!
udah ah...........................

it's been too long since i stucked in this delirium.

yesterday i was in luv, today not in luv, later? dunno..

Maybe it's bcos im heartless, i cant even know my real feelings towards sumone.

jadi..hmm...kmaren2 i thought that ada keanehan dlm hidup gw. Yah, yg berhubungan ma this heartless thing, dan ternyata keanehan yg enjoyable itu semu. duh,.. karena keanehan yg sbenernya bru aja dimulai malam tadi. havent sleep from nite until now, thinking about last nite. ah.. a fckin torchering wonderful nite [halah..].. damn, it's kiling me!!

hmmph...capek rasanya klo hrus terus2an nge-stuck dlm absurditas ini.tapi ga mau brenti juga. duh..gmana sih? gmana dunk? gmana yah? hahahaha... goblok.hiahahaha,... dbawa santaiiiiiiiiiiiiii.... pastinya siiiih... tpi teteppppp...!! ada aja bagian paniknya, bagian tegangnya, bagian dodolnya. tau ah...i am scaredddddddd... scared of this, scared of him. scared of what i felt. scared of what im feeling. scared of what i will feel. la .. la .. la .. am i less heartless now? i might be..yea..that is interesting..hohoho.... bcos i know it's only a matter of time til u walk out. hmmm...

damn..!! why do u have to be so mean ???!!

damn..!! why do u have to be so devilish ???!!

damn..!!

why do u have to be so lovable, darling...??

niii....some of the photos....

me and my luvly autisic pal.. hahaha.... cowok yg paling cantik dan bodoh dan autis yg pernah ku temui!!!! hahahaha [pisss yoooo!!!]

me and my sister-in-law... and also my good friend!! [luv u, mitchie]

aku dan febry yg super besaaaaaar...!!!!!

hahahahahaha

dari kiri ke kanan :

Febry, ayub, uban dan aku..!!!!

tpi msh tetep dunk ahhhhhhhhhhhh....!!!!!

numero #1 j.a.L.a.N.k !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that is one thing that will never changed.......

wow...

cma blg satu kata aja.... tpi binun mw blg apa ya?

wow???

tau ahhhhhhhhh.....

tpi yah, i feel so ffckin relieved.

skrg udh tw rasanya gmn.

rasa apaan siiih?????????

apa yaaaa????

hohohohohohohohoho

for ffck's sake.....

i am in LOVE...!!!!!!

whaaaaaaaaaaat????????

hiahahahahahhahaa

blm yakin bgt sih klo yg gw rasain ini adalah "hal busuk" itu, tpi yah...it seems like it is. and u know what? never been sure than before, until he said the same thing. yea.. for all these times, dia yg slalu menghindari kata-kata "busuk" itu. and when he said that, i do feel happy, and relieved, and i think i felt the same. or maybe it's just an euphoria? feeling somewhat in love just bcos i knew that someone that i had-crush-with is in love with me? ah..i dun care, i love the feeling, and enjoy it sooooo much. oh, darling........... i am so ffcked up... hahahahahhaha..............

i've always said to many people who were in love with me

"r u trying to tell me that u love me?"

"well..no...yes...no... i mean i dun know"

"how come u said that u dun know?"

"i dun know! i lost my appetite when u're not here, i got this weird feeling in my stomach every time i see u around"

"ooo..no..no... u got butterflies in ur stomach!! and u know what? butterflies go to be killed!!!"

[haghag..quoting from blair's from gossip girl statement!!]

and ffck... i am feeling that now! i got a whole bunch f butterflies in my stomach, and the worst thing is... those butterflies got very active every time i think of hime or hearing his voice! aaah.... lame.... and what will those butterflies do when i meet him??????

unimaginable imagination... halag,,, kata2nya tai banget..!!!

du...du...du...

kacau duniakuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!

hahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

gila gw!!!! gila!!! gila!!! gilaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

keanehan berantai [apa ssehh??!] telah terjadiiiiiiiiiiiiii.......................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sbenernya ini hal yg lucu.
atau aib yah?? dugh ga ngerti deh gw

jadi gini, my period [a.k.a MENS] usually starts between 31st to 2nd.
and suddenly, tanggal 25 ko gw udh having my period yah?
krn stress kah? spertinya masuk akal...

pantesan aja beberapa hari kebelakang gw tuh yg BIRAHI bangeeeeeedh!!! haghaghag
pengen nge-ffck aja kerjaannya, dan yg menyedihkan, hasrat itu blm terpenuhi!!!
sialaaaaaaaaan
bukan krn ga ada objek [duhh.....] tpi krn gw lgi ngidam ma seseorang.
yaaah....... ternyata....... ngidam bgd gw ma dia!
and it was so relieving knowing that i'm in lust wit him. [njed, ternyata gw BLUM jato cinta ma diia...!]
pengeeeeeeen bgt ngeswe [idiiih,...bahasanyaaaa!!!!]

tau ahhh,..... dan slama fase ke-HORNY-an gw yg xtreme itu.... spertinya byk skali hal2 yg gw lakuin tpi gw ga sadar dan ga inget klo ngelakuin itu.
apa coba??
gini, tadi siang.....
pas lagi dirumah spupu2 gw tersayang, gw mw ganti pembalut,.
then gw kaget.
ko ni jemb*t [haghaghag] tiba2 udh cepak aja????!!!!
pdhl takir kali yg gw inget, blm se-cepak ini. [havent wax it for like 2 months???!!]
kaget aja gw, ko bisa tiba2 cepak yah?
did i shave them unconsciously?????
masa sih bsa lupa?
sdgkn gw yg udh sober bgt!!! [didnt drink, didnt swallow any drugs]
so gmn bsa ampe skip gtu???

tau ahhhhhhhh
satu keanehan yang patut dicari penjelasan logisnya.

bingung gw... sumpahhhhh
bingung bingung bingung....!!!!!

jadi jalank goblok kyknya gw skrg.

haghaghag
aneh!!!

tu judul bkn dlm artian sbenernya loh.
[klo bnrn pgn mkn tai, aah...tolol dunk gw!!]
cma emg these days were so ffckin sssuckkks!!!!!!
binun mw lampiasin ke apa atw ke mana. nda mgkin jga mabok2an gtu. dugh...kyk yg udh out of date bgdh.[macam abg ja plarian nya mabok..]
akirnya...
gw potong rambut.
just for info... sebelumnya [msh dlm bln juni] ada kali gw ngegunting rambut gw ampe 5 atw 6 kali.
ya poni lah [3x, potong sebawah alis, trus potong dibikin miring trus potong lgi se-alis] trus rmbut daerah deket kuping dipendekin, trus ganti ngeratain ujung2 rambut
[dan mayan byk jga motongnya].
dan skrg... haghaghaghag.... poni udh jauuuuuh diatas alis, rambut smakin pendek dan modelnya skrg udh brantakan.

klo kata madam mah "itu rambut kyk ga prnh disetrika!!!"

"heee???? madam pikir rambut gw baju apaah??!!"

"iyee...lecek !!!"

tugh.. kesian bgd yak gw?
emak gw sndiri aja ampe bilang gtu...

trusss... ada masalah lagi...
badan gw makin membesar sajaaah...
dugh... bknnya gw takut gemuk atw gendut,...
tapi baju2 gw udh pada mlai mengetat dan menyempit... uggghhh
dan perut lucuku ini makin membuncit dgn indahnya [assssiiikkk!!!] dan akibatnya clana2 mulai kudu dpaksain biar muat, dan akibatnya gw jadi agak sesek aja... ughhh...
udh gtu ni pantat jga mulai xtreme..aaah,,... mulai ga balance dah,...
dan herannya...
dgn pembengkakan badan gw ini, ko toket [yg emg dr awalnya agak rata] mlh mulai smakin merata yahhh????
dugh..dugh... makin lucu sih [mnurut gw!! scara gw NARSIS!!]
cumaaaaa... kok jdi ga balance bgt kliatannya.
prut ma toket balapan dan hebatnya prut gw yg nyampe finish dluan... haghaghag...
krn nda ada budget buat blanja, jadii kaos2nya madam gw bajak aja,,,, dan kaosnya gede2 smua and akirnya gw sadar dan pasrah, mulai saat ini, gw hrs memakai kaos2 gombrong nan kdodoran.. biarkan saja,... toh nanti pada akirnya akan menjadi trend [sok2an trendsetter bgd gw..!!]
ya gaaa????
tau ahhhh......

blm lgi mslh dgn tmen2,
trus mslh ma emosi gw
trus mslh dgn hati gw., yg tdinya udh mulai ada bykan dikit, eh skrg malah kena erosi trusss abisssssss dan hanyutttt... ilang lgi hatiku... pdhl susah loh mereproduksi hati..

yahhh itulah.... hidupkuuuuuuuuuuuu...
pengen ngegaruk aspal tpi ntar kuku gw yg indah berkuteks mlh jdi rusak.
pengen bunuh diri, tpi gw ga sedepresi itu.
pengen mabok, tpi ga kpengen [lho??gmn tu yah mksdnya??]
ya dah deh... pengen makan tai aja.... hiahahaha

ada yg mo ikutan???

ngahahahaha...

judulnya tae bgt ya.
yarin ah,,.. biar kyk yg seru gitu.

hoho.. anyway, whose heart that bein pink-painted?? mine??? no..no..no..
ga seru yah, klo bukan hati gw yg jadi pink.
ngarep sih gw [bangettt!!] klo hati gw akirnya jadi pink.
ugh, tpi susah bgt.
walopun ada seseorang yg menganggap saya punya hati dan tidak menganggap saya seorang jalank. tapiiiii..... ahhhh... tau...
he said "jgn sebut jalank lagi ah, bagi saya kmu bukan jalank"
dan ku respons apa coba???
ku jawab dgn bodohnya "aah, masa?"
krn speechless aja... ko msh ada yah org yg nganggep saya bkn jalank.??!!
and that makes him sooo..... special [hiahaha] and i wish i could pink-ed my heart... damn...!!!!!

i want hiiiim...!!!!! badly...!!!! [aarggh...akirnya ngaku jga gw!!!! ga tahan, sob!]

HAHAHAHAHAHA

remember yah... i want him. not love him. coba dicerna baik2 kalimatnya.

i want him..!! i want him..!!

mengapa oh mengapa....... cabulitasku menggebu bila mengingat dirimu????????

knapa siiih..... saat kejalangan saya pada titik puncak [thd dirimu]. kmu mlh bilang saya bukan jalank?

knapaaaaaaaaa?????????

slalu aja otak kotor yg pegang dominansi atas sgala sesuatu yg berhubungan ma kmu.
uuugh............
apa iya...??
kmu adalah makhluk berkuping lancip, bertanduk dan berekor trisula yg diciptakan untukku???????
apa iyaaaaaaaaa????????

btw, adakah iblis yg tidak merokok dan tidak minum alkohol.....???????