setelah sekian lama.
sulitnya untuk memulai (kembali).
menuliskan apa yang ada dalam benak, atau menulis tentang sesuatu yang berguna. Entah bagimu atau bagiku atau mungkin bagi mereka.
sekarang aku mencoba (kembali).
rasanya itu seperti .... hmmm .... belajar berjalan? ah.. aku tak pernah ingat bagaimana rasanya saat belajar berjalan.
atau seperti ... patah hati? bukaaaan... bukan seperti itu rasanya...
rasanya mungkin lebih mirip seperti saat pergi ke suatu tempat baru bersama teman-teman lalu tak sengaja terpisah dari mereka lalu tersesat. Campuran antara panik (tapi aku tidak mrasa panik skrg), takut (hmm..sdikit), bingung (perasaan ini yg dominan saat ini) dan apalagi ya? ah, entahlah...
ya sudah .. setidaknya sudah ada satu tulisan yang berhasil kutulis. i'm doing my baby step.
one two.. one two.. smoga sebentar lagi ada hujan inspirasi, atau tiba-tiba jariku menolak untuk bersentuhan dengan keypad blackberry-ku dan lebih memilih untuk bermain dengan keyboard ini.
doakan saja.. karena aku amat sangat rindu menulis :)

judulnya norak. tapi gue ga peduli.

suka'' gue yah, mau ngasih judul apa or mau nulis apa.

tapi seriusan ini masalah fakta.

some people won't understand. ngeliat kemarin'' saat hidup gue (kata orang'') amat sangat berantakan dan tidak terarah, ga punya tujuan hidup, begajulan, liar, dll dsb. Tapi kenapa ya disaat itu malah gue yang punya kerjaan yang bagus, berdaging cukup (i means gemuk :p) and everyhing seems so wonderful.

i spent almost everyday on alco and chems. but my life was great putting aside my lovelife ya tentunya, ahahhahahaaa...

so now... back to being like 'that' again...... u know with all those shitty things back to my life again. i try to hide this from some people. but.................. soon they will know. but i dont care.

who the ffck they are to tell me how to life?

and again.... i dont need any stupid narrow minded people to give me any judgement.

accept it, gue itu hebat. despite of every my intolerable habits, im a hell awesome woman (or girl??? ah,, ffck that)

jadi gini ya point nya.... biingung gue drtd kok nulis muter'' ga jelas kayak apaan tau.

well, everyone need their pumper. some good some bad. walaupun yang baik dan buruk itu purely subjektif.

now tell me... if i use somekinds of substances to pump up my mood and creativity and in the end it gives me an outstanding achievement, then ... is bad? is it wrong? will you say that im guilty? naah... i dont give a ffck, no i won't and i'll never give a single damn about your opinions.

try to see thing from the other side. up, down, left, right. whatever. try not to be bound of others' norms and point of view.

try to live like me. really.... try it. you'll see. that me, that u called a spoiled brat, one day will make you bend on your knees and beg beg beg to dear God, ask Him and plead to Him to make you be just like me. ahaha. sampah yak. bodo. emang gue peduli.

judulnya norak. tapi gue ga peduli.

suka'' gue yah, mau ngasih judul apa or mau nulis apa.

tapi seriusan ini masalah fakta.

some people won't understand. ngeliat kemarin'' saat hidup gue (kata orang'') amat sangat berantakan dan tidak terarah, ga punya tujuan hidup, begajulan, liar, dll dsb. Tapi kenapa ya disaat itu malah gue yang punya kerjaan yang bagus, berdaging cukup (i means gemuk :p) and everyhing seems so wonderful.

i spent almost everyday on alco and chems. but my life was great putting aside my lovelife ya tentunya, ahahhahahaaa...

so now... back to being like 'that' again...... u know with all those shitty things back to my life again. i try to hide this from some people. but.................. soon they will know. but i dont care.

who the ffck they are to tell me how to life?

and again.... i dont need any stupid narrow minded people to give me any judgement.

accept it, gue itu hebat. despite of every my intolerable habits, im a hell awesome woman (or girl??? ah,, ffck that)

jadi gini ya point nya.... biingung gue drtd kok nulis muter'' ga jelas kayak apaan tau.

well, everyone need their pumper. some good some bad. walaupun yang baik dan buruk itu purely subjektif.

now tell me... if i use somekinds of substances to pump up my mood and creativity and in the end it gives me an outstanding achievement, then ... is bad? is it wrong? will you say that im guilty? naah... i dont give a ffck, no i won't and i'll never give a single damn about your opinions.

try to see thing from the other side. up, down, left, right. whatever. try not to be bound of others' norms and point of view.

try to live like me. really.... try it. you'll see. that me, that u called a spoiled brat, one day will make you bend on your knees and beg beg beg to dear God, ask Him and plead to Him to make you be just like me. ahaha. sampah yak. bodo. emang gue peduli.

judulnya norak. tapi gue ga peduli.

suka'' gue yah, mau ngasih judul apa or mau nulis apa.

tapi seriusan ini masalah fakta.

some people won't understand. ngeliat kemarin'' saat hidup gue (kata orang'') amat sangat berantakan dan tidak terarah, ga punya tujuan hidup, begajulan, liar, dll dsb. Tapi kenapa ya disaat itu malah gue yang punya kerjaan yang bagus, berdaging cukup (i means gemuk :p) and everyhing seems so wonderful.

i spent almost everyday on alco and chems. but my life was great putting aside my lovelife ya tentunya, ahahhahahaaa...

so now... back to being like 'that' again...... u know with all those shitty things back to my life again. i try to hide this from some people. but.................. soon they will know. but i dont care.

who the ffck they are to tell me how to life?

and again.... i dont need any stupid narrow minded people to give me any judgement.

accept it, gue itu hebat. despite of every my intolerable habits, im a hell awesome woman (or girl??? ah,, ffck that)

jadi gini ya point nya.... biingung gue drtd kok nulis muter'' ga jelas kayak apaan tau.

well, everyone need their pumper. some good some bad. walaupun yang baik dan buruk itu purely subjektif.

now tell me... if i use somekinds of substances to pump up my mood and creativity and in the end it gives me an outstanding achievement, then ... is bad? is it wrong? will you say that im guilty? naah... i dont give a ffck, no i won't and i'll never give a single damn about your opinions.

try to see thing from the other side. up, down, left, right. whatever. try not to be bound of others' norms and point of view.

try to live like me. really.... try it. you'll see. that me, that u called a spoiled brat, one day will make you bend on your knees and beg beg beg to dear God, ask Him and plead to Him to make you be just like me. ahaha. sampah yak. bodo. emang gue peduli.